My heart is broken to say the least
I put all my love and heart into one person for so long
Trusting that it would never be released
For once I give it, I give it completely and belong
Yet not knowing there is the slow white lying to a constant steady
That beats you down over and over so you’re not ready
For the trust to be taken and hope to be crushed
As you try and try again thinking it must
Be restored to where it once was for the heart
The heart to survive the betrayal it feels
Becoming weaker and far away from the smart
Love that existed and that seals
The souls to each heart and body
Of the one that is now shoddy
And far away from the way it once was
Just out of reach and leaves you to pause
Asking, “what did I do wrong? Why am I not enough?”
To bring that one back to you and out of the darkness
Causing him to be fake and to bluff
Not himself anymore and living the harshness
That became our life and being so lost
Not knowing what to do to bring us back
I tried and tried with it only being tossed
Back at me as if nothing would disperse the wrack
Of where we had found ourselves
Feeling we had put us on the shelves
For dealing with it later as always
Yet feeling we were in a constant haze
Finally I couldn’t take it any more
I was ready to run out the door
I didn’t know what else to do
So I said I was through
After fighting so hard and for so long
I had a hard time seeing I belonged
In this relationship we no longer connected to
For all the many years we were only continuing to undo
The love we had promised one another was gone
All I could do was look on
To hope for a better life for him if I left
Because in the last few years it was only bereft
He had to find himself again and so did I
The only way to see it was goodbye
So he went his way and I went mine
I pray that we will heal in time
So both our hearts will no longer be broken
But solid and steadfast for trust, love and hoping.
Belle