Poem, Uncategorized

My Heart is Broken

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My heart is broken to say the least

I put all my love and heart into one person for so long

Trusting that it would never be released

For once I give it, I give it completely and belong

Yet not knowing there is the slow white lying to a constant steady

That beats you down over and over so you’re not ready

For the trust to be taken and hope to be crushed

As you try and try again thinking it must

Be restored to where it once was for the heart

The heart to survive the betrayal it feels

Becoming weaker and far away from the smart

Love that existed and that seals

The souls to each heart and body

Of the one that is now shoddy

And far away from the way it once was

Just out of reach and leaves you to pause

Asking, “what did I do wrong? Why am I not enough?”

To bring that one back to you and out of the darkness

Causing him to be fake and to bluff

Not himself anymore and living the harshness

That became our life and being so lost

Not knowing what to do to bring us back

I tried and tried with it only being tossed

Back at me as if nothing would disperse the wrack

Of where we had found ourselves

Feeling we had put us on the shelves

For dealing with it later as always

Yet feeling we were in a constant haze

Finally I couldn’t take it any more

I was ready to run out the door

I didn’t know what else to do

So I said I was through

After fighting so hard and for so long

I had a hard time seeing I belonged

In this relationship we no longer connected to

For all the many years we were only continuing to undo

The love we had promised one another was gone

All I could do was look on

To hope for a better life for him if I left

Because in the last few years it was only bereft

He had to find himself again and so did I

The only way to see it was goodbye

So he went his way and I went mine

I pray that we will heal in time

So both our hearts will no longer be broken

But solid and steadfast for trust, love and hoping.

Belle

 

 

 

 

pictureprompt, Uncategorized

Use Wisely

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*Pixabay

As she walks slowly through the woods behind her home, she is lost in her thoughts.  Thoughts of frustration, feeling lost, wanting to help heal, wanting to move things, maybe by air.

Leaves float by her and around her.  She thinks, “it’s awfully early for the leaves to be falling.”  

Unfocused on her surroundings yet focused on her thoughts, she doesn’t realize that the more she gets lost in her thoughts, the more the wind is picking up and leaves are swirling around her.  They brush her face, along her cheeks and softly touching her lips.  She stops and looks around her.  She finds herself in the midst of a small tornado of leaves and flowers.  Her hands are lifted up on each side of her and she is tingling with sensation.  “What is going on?!”

Watching as the leaves swirl about, she breathes in deeply and exhales evenly.  Everything slows down slowly and as she brings her breathing to a steady rhythm, it all settles around her.  “What just happened?”  She asks out loud.

“Power is a great thing. Now you know you have it, use it wisely,” A voice from no where is heard suddenly and disappears just as quickly.

She stands there stunned and unable to comprehend what just happened.

“Maddie where are you?” she hears her sister call.

“I’m here!” and she moves to meet her.


A story that has formed in my mind just from a picture.

Belle xo

sharing, Take2Tuesday, Uncategorized

Take Two Tuesday

Like last week, I am sharing two quotes/memes and two videos.

Today it is about Confidence!

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This one by Demi is one of my faves! Just watching it gets you feeling upbeat. 😉

Raye’s video and song is the first time I have seen and heard it. I found it when surfing YouTube to find Confidence videos. Love it!

I hope you enjoy and get something from these.  If you have any you like, please share.  I always love new songs and quotes/memes to go by.  ❤

Belle xo

anxiety, sharing, Uncategorized

Using Anxiety to Create

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*Photo from Pexels

Such a great article on Creativity and Anxiety.  About learning to use your anxiety for your creativity.  Something that I feel is definitely beneficial for me and thought others might feel the same.

It’s called :

Keys to Creativity: Using anxiety to create.

“Anxiety can be a double edged sword: it can either help you move forward or keep you stuck and paralyzed. Creativity and anxiety share a commonality: possibility. When we create we push the boundaries of the norm, of what’s acceptable, we experiment with ideas and dismantle the boxes imposed by family and society in order to reach the realm of possibility. Similarly, anxiety is the reaction some of us experience in the face of potentiality and possibility. We become anxious when we know little or nothing about something, as a way to defend ourselves in the face of the big unknown. Creativity is brought forth by embracing the unknown. This is the crucial point when you are presented with the opportunity to choose: remain “protected” by your anxiety and stay stuck, plunge into the unknown, or use anxiety as transportation to your creative place.”
Follow the link above to read more!
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What do you think??
Belle xo