Poem, poetry, writing

The Love That Used to Fill My Heart

 

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The love that used to fill my heart

Is now just a lasting part

Of the past that have fond memories

For the way it all used to be

The first real love that filled me up

That I always thought would windup

My every joy and happiness blessed

I really never would have guessed

There would be a break in my life

To make me feel full of strife

But now I must move on

To other joys and loves beyond

This point I find myself now

For happiness to make I vow

To continue to learn and prosper

And never harvest or foster

The hurt I have felt up to this point

Yet to feel and anoint

Those around me with my joy

And never ever to destroy

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I feel this is kind of corny but it is basically what I have been feeling and wanted to get out for now.

Belle xo

 

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In The Archives

woman-3435842__480I never thought I would be in this place

Always thought, not me, it could never happen to me

Yet, here I am, feeling at times I have fallen from grace

Feeling so ashamed, broken and crappy

I fought so hard, yet still didn’t save us

But that’s what happens when only one is making the effort

Then you woke up and decided to fuss

Even though we already seemed to be severed

With no communication and trust to help in the fix

It all fell apart no matter what was in the mix

No amount of counseling, talking and listening would do

I still saw you continue to do the same with no clue

And until I finally gave up and you went to the retreat

Did you admit all I had been saying was concrete

I am done and hate it has come to this

For even though the years have been hell and bliss

I know its time to move on with our lives

And put this part of us in the archives

Belle xo

*Picture from Pixabay

 

 

 

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One step at a time

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Here is a poem regarding things I have been through recently.  This will not be the norm but wanted to share…

 

For so many years, not realizing there was a problem

I took on a load of responsibility and caring

This was my family and the way I am for them

To be the one to count on and answer bearing

 

I did not see it as something wrong

It is how I have always been

To take on where others couldn’t get along 

And put them ahead of me then

 

It wore me down, so much for being strong

I started to falter and feel alone in my efforts

The days and years felt as being so very long

Not feeling appreciated or seen for my merits

 

When finally I couldn’t do it anymore

I could do nothing but walk out the door

So I wouldn’t fall into my depression and act on it

I sought out help finally and it took a bit

 

I am finding my voice and strengths once again

Realizing boundaries and lines that should not be crossed

It’s hard to put into practice this new vein

Of understanding myself to not be lost

 

In other’s feelings and needs that are not my own

Making them realize they are not alone

Even though I must not take on their problems

I can offer my assistance in supporting against goblins

 

So as I take one step at a time

I’m hoping and praying to find

That I have love and understanding

I find happiness and give it longstanding

 

Belle xo

*Picture found on Pinterest