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Blood Rain

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You know those intense dreams? The ones that feel so real yet you know it can’t be?

One I had a few nights ago:

Friends are going to a dirt bike race they are participating in.  I am busy so decline going.  It is a night time race.  As I am walking down the street, after talking to a few and seeing more pass by from the track, I hear the fireworks going off.   I look down and I see a place where I must have scratched a small scab off of my hand and made it bleed.  But then there is another.  And then more.  I realize suddenly that it is not from me! The sky is raining blood! I run and seek shelter, but see none.  Suddenly I come upon a bleacher and it is covered for sun shade during the day.  I race under the cover and stand as far away from all sides as I can.  I am breathless and don’t know what to do.  I look around for help and some insight as what to do.

Then I am awake, hot and sweaty.  Well, that was something.  What the hell???

Yep.  Very weird!

Belle

Thankful

Here We Are

I have a very special person in my life.  He has been by my side and supported me through so much, as I have tried to do for him as well (although I think he can say he has dealt with more 😉 ).  He has taken a place in my heart and there he stays.

Have you ever found someone you just click with.  The one that understands you more than you understand yourself?  The one that can tell you what you are thinking next before you think it?  The person that can tell something is wrong even before you realize it?  I have found that person.  I am blessed to have him in my life.

When I went to see him at the end of October, it was like I had just seen him, yet it felt like it had been forever! You know what I mean?

When he visited me last, he was going through the loss of his mother, the one person that had always been there, had looked after him and in turn, he looked after her until her passing.  I cannot imagine and don’t want to imagine.  I know it will come one day and I am not wanting it to.  My parents mean so much to me!

But during this time, he was lost.  He knew where he was, but he was numb to all around him.  He was not himself and all I could do was be there for him, as he has always been there for me.  As a matter of fact, just today he told me he didn’t realize how out of it he had been during that time.  From what I understand that is normal and it can definitely be worse.

So, when I saw him in October, he was getting back to himself.  We went to see his personal assistant get married at a quaint farm where they were using the barns as entertainment/wedding venues.  We went and saw friends in London and went over to Rotterdam for a few days to see friends.  As I said, I am blessed.  The scenery in Rotterdam was amazing and beautiful depending on where you went.  (I am sharing a few pictures I took at the top of the page.)

He is now here visiting for a couple of weeks and is more himself than even when I went there to see him.  I am so happy about that.  I am trying to make sure he sees things he hasn’t yet and is enjoying himself while he is here.  We have so much fun together!

Anyway, I just wanted to share a bit about him and hopefully if he reads this he will see and know how much I appreciate him and I thank him for being there and always having my back, supporting me through it all!

 

Update

And So We Move On

620560A3-109A-4AD0-B0E0-302B023BFC27With all the traveling, holidays and weddings taking up my time, I did not get over 7000 words done in the NaNoWriMo.  However, that is 7000 more than I had and has me at a good start to my Fantasy novel! 🙂

So, we move on.  I am back and my plan is to be here weekly.  I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday here in the US or where ever you may be! I’m looking forward to seeing what everyone is doing during this month of December, wherever you are.

I have goals and plans that I am working on for the coming year and beyond.  I know many of you do as well.

Therefore, lets make it all happen and get excited for all the plans ahead!!

Belle xo

(*Pic I took in Rotterdam)

 

NaNoWriMo, writing

#NaNoWriMo

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I have not been around recently for many reasons.  The main one is that I was preparing and beginning to participate in the #NaNoWriMo challenge! I was at the beginning of writing a fantasy novel and wanted that extra incentive to get it done or at least on the road to being done.  Knowing that you don’t always reach the finality of the book in this challenge, I knew I could at least get that push and “umph” to get it going and hopefully almost if not completely written by the end of November!!

Because of other things going on at the end of October and the beginning of this month I am now really going to be ducking into my writer’s cave and diving into my writing.  50,000 words by the end of November is no small feat so wish me luck and keep on being great the way you are!!!

Belle xo

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Love You and Your Body

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I have always had a love/hate relationship with my body.  But I have found that if I do not like something about my body I either need to live with it and love it, or do something about it and love it more.  That is why I am working with my doctor right now on a diet plan where I have a monthly check up for her to keep tabs on me.  And as I do this, I am exercising, going to yoga and eating a healthy diet (for the main part). I feel so great right now for doing this.

So, when I have a lady come in to our store, as she is going to be a model for us at the local fashion show we are participating in, and she is constantly down on herself; the way she looks, her body and her age, I try my best to make her feel good and confident about herself.  It hurts me to hear someone put themselves down and make rude comments about themselves.  It just isn’t right.  I just wanted her to feel good in her own skin!

Tonight was the fashion show and she looked great along with the other 10 models we had.  She being the oldest, she looked amazing and they all did so great!

How do you feel about your body?

Belle xo

 

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Things I Have Done and Things In The Works

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I would like to share with you, dear readers, some things I have done and am working on.  I have had so much going on in my life for the past few years and have found again my love of writing in the midst of this.  So that, along with my love of singing and using my voice, I have decided on a lot of avenues to be able to do with these things I love.  Here goes….

*You know (or maybe you don’t), I wrote a book about erotica, mystery, adventure and love.  It helped me escape from things I was trying to deal with in my life at the time as well as help me to express myself in a different way.  I let the story pour out of me and take on a life of its own.  I am proud of that book.  I know that some of my family and friends do not approve of it nor of some of the things in it, but that’s okay.  They do not have to read it nor accept it.  And I am going through it now to correct errors and edit it a bit more, so I will be reintroducing it once that is done.  I am also going to start writing a second book with some of the same characters in it.  I feel, even if it never goes far, at least I tried.

*I am also writing a couple of other stories and am hoping they do well also, especially one of them.  These will be under the name I use here, Belle Scribe.  I enjoy the twist and turns you can make in a story and its fun to see where the story can go.  I am really excited!

*I have written short stories and poems that I am thinking of making into books of each.  I have so many of these, and I see others doing the same, as in putting them in a book together.  I think it is a great idea and am looking more into this.  We will see.

*Last but definitely not least, I am working on doing some audio work.  I have not been able to use my voice as much as I like, not having a full-on band to play with recently, other than on Sunday mornings.  So, I thought, what can I do to use my voice and share it with the world?  Audio work!  (Like audio book work, voice over, reading short stories for myself and others)  And now my small audio studio is set and ready to go.  I have done a couple of test readings and so far they are good.  I will be putting some audio to the stories here and hope you all will give me some good feed back once I do.  It would be very much appreciated, if so.  🙂

I have been listening to a lot of great podcasts recently regarding entrepreneurship, writing and audio, so am very excited to put things into practice and get started from here! And if you need someone to read your stories or help out, please let me know!

Belle xo