sharing, thoughts

Love You and Your Body

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I have always had a love/hate relationship with my body.  But I have found that if I do not like something about my body I either need to live with it and love it, or do something about it and love it more.  That is why I am working with my doctor right now on a diet plan where I have a monthly check up for her to keep tabs on me.  And as I do this, I am exercising, going to yoga and eating a healthy diet (for the main part). I feel so great right now for doing this.

So, when I have a lady come in to our store, as she is going to be a model for us at the local fashion show we are participating in, and she is constantly down on herself; the way she looks, her body and her age, I try my best to make her feel good and confident about herself.  It hurts me to hear someone put themselves down and make rude comments about themselves.  It just isn’t right.  I just wanted her to feel good in her own skin!

Tonight was the fashion show and she looked great along with the other 10 models we had.  She being the oldest, she looked amazing and they all did so great!

How do you feel about your body?

Belle xo

 

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Things I Have Done and Things In The Works

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I would like to share with you, dear readers, some things I have done and am working on.  I have had so much going on in my life for the past few years and have found again my love of writing in the midst of this.  So that, along with my love of singing and using my voice, I have decided on a lot of avenues to be able to do with these things I love.  Here goes….

*You know (or maybe you don’t), I wrote a book about erotica, mystery, adventure and love.  It helped me escape from things I was trying to deal with in my life at the time as well as help me to express myself in a different way.  I let the story pour out of me and take on a life of its own.  I am proud of that book.  I know that some of my family and friends do not approve of it nor of some of the things in it, but that’s okay.  They do not have to read it nor accept it.  And I am going through it now to correct errors and edit it a bit more, so I will be reintroducing it once that is done.  I am also going to start writing a second book with some of the same characters in it.  I feel, even if it never goes far, at least I tried.

*I am also writing a couple of other stories and am hoping they do well also, especially one of them.  These will be under the name I use here, Belle Scribe.  I enjoy the twist and turns you can make in a story and its fun to see where the story can go.  I am really excited!

*I have written short stories and poems that I am thinking of making into books of each.  I have so many of these, and I see others doing the same, as in putting them in a book together.  I think it is a great idea and am looking more into this.  We will see.

*Last but definitely not least, I am working on doing some audio work.  I have not been able to use my voice as much as I like, not having a full-on band to play with recently, other than on Sunday mornings.  So, I thought, what can I do to use my voice and share it with the world?  Audio work!  (Like audio book work, voice over, reading short stories for myself and others)  And now my small audio studio is set and ready to go.  I have done a couple of test readings and so far they are good.  I will be putting some audio to the stories here and hope you all will give me some good feed back once I do.  It would be very much appreciated, if so.  🙂

I have been listening to a lot of great podcasts recently regarding entrepreneurship, writing and audio, so am very excited to put things into practice and get started from here! And if you need someone to read your stories or help out, please let me know!

Belle xo

Music

Music – The Universal Language

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You know, there are a lot of people using music in their posts, sharing the music they like or love and quoting lyrics from music.

Music is the universal language everyone loves and gets something from.

Music is a part of me.  I have been in the choir at church, had voice lessons, started in college as a music major (changing over to a different major because I didn’t want to do opera nor teach), was in an acapella group, recorded my own CD and have been in two cover bands and a praise band.  My love is singing, if you didn’t guess from the remark about voice lessons or opera.  I was given a gift that I love using and want to use more of.  There is a want in me to make people feel the music and the meaning of the song I sing.

Enjoying most genres of music (country, pop, rock, soft rock, jazz, instrumental, from the 60s on up to the current time), I will listen to different ones each day, or for a few days and then switch it up to something else the next.  Or I will have a mixture of all types to listen to within a given time period.  Loving the oldies and up to the fresh new sounds.  There are so many wonderful kinds of music and I find new ones I haven’t heard yet all the time.

There are songs I will listen to when I am angry to calm me down or let all the anger out with.  Then there are those I listen to that will make me happy when I am sad.  Of course, there are those that will make you cry and those that will make you feel strong, just by listening to them and feeling the music and the words.  It’s amazing what the right song and music can do.

Enjoying a song in another language is great too!  Like one you have always heard in English and then you hear it in Spanish or French.  Amazing!

The love of music can bring groups or individuals together that are strangers. Once the music starts it is like you have this connection that you share, this understanding of the same thing.  And for that space in time you share this energy that races through the masses.

Here are a few songs I like and want to share with you. I hope you enjoy!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Okay, so I went a bit crazy.  And I am just getting started! 😉

Belle xo

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I Am What I Am

I saw someone on twitter share that this song is a great one to play and sing along to. I found it and absolutely agree. So, I am sharing the video and the lyrics for you to enjoy too!

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I am what I am
I am my own special creation
So come take a look
Give me the hook or the ovation

It’s my world that I want to have a little pride in
My world and it’s not a place I have to hide in
Life’s not worth a damn till you can say
Hey world I am what I am
I am what I am
I don’t want praise
I don’t want pity
I bang my own drum
Some think it’s noise
I think it’s pretty
And so what if I love each feather and each spangle
Why not try and see things from a different angle
Your life is a sham till you can say
Hey world I am what I am
I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the ace
Sometimes the deuces
It’s my life and there’s no return and no deposit
One life, so it’s time to open up your closet
Life’s not worth a damn till you can say
Hey world I am what I am
thoughts

Fumbling Through

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Do you ever feel like you are fumbling through life? Like no matter what you do and what decisions you make, they just lead you to the next fumbling stage?

I just want my life to be sound.  To not have to constantly worry about what is going to happen next, what bill is going to show up to be paid, what person is going to want something else from you or demand something be done, to make a stupid mistake and disappoint those you love, to continue to not do the right things.

I know I have made some good decisions in my life and I do not regret anything that has happened in my life. Any bad decisions or bad things that have happened are lessons learned and hopefully I won’t do them again.  Unfortunately that makes me not trust myself and my decisions at times.

It makes you wonder what you did in a past life (if there was one) that this life is paying for sometimes.   And if you make silly or bad decisions for yourself, what did you do regarding your kids, and are they okay?  Hopefully you did the best you could and they came out the better end of things.  I pray this is so!

I know we didn’t do things right at times and I know that we all learn as we go.  Just wishing at this moment I had been blessed with a business brain instead of a dreaming/creative brain.  It doesn’t seem to do anything for me but get me no where fast.   I know, that’s silly, because I have been told that I am blessed with a beautiful voice, a beautiful heart and soul.  Unfortunately, that hasn’t gotten me very far.  And here I am at an age where I should be enjoying myself.  The kids are grown and starting a life of their own.  I have time to travel and do things for myself and do the extra things I couldn’t before.  But having just gone through a divorce and trying to figure out my life all over again, and what direction to go, it’s not where I am.

So what do I do from here?

I have to make some big decisions and I know I have to do it when I am ready, but when will that be?  Why can’t they just be made for me? I know…I wouldn’t be happy or satisfied if someone else made it for me.  I have been told to not rush, take my time, so that the decisions I make will be what is right for me.  I know this to be true, but I let things distract me and it seems to take longer for me, especially longer than I want.

Once again, thank you for taking the time to read what is going on in my mind and hopefully I will continue to do more writing instead of sharing my mind/thoughts.  Ha!

Belle xo

 

 

Short story

The Peace That Lets You Breathe

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Angie got in her car and headed south.  She wasn’t sure where she was going but knew she had to get away.  It took her the better part of four hours to get there but once she reached the beach area of South Carolina she knew she had found what she was looking for.

She got out of her car slowly, stripped down to her bathing suit, walked down across the sand and stepped in the lukewarm water.  Walking that way for a while just on the edge, she then stepped back up on the sand.  Finding a secluded area where she was sure others were not around, she sat down.  The sun felt so good on her face and body.

Taking a deep breath in, she sighed.  Peace.  The peace she needed and longed for.  At least for now.  She knew she had responsibilities and couldn’t stay long, but this is what she had been needing.  To get away from everything and everyone and just breathe.

Staying until she watched the beautiful sun set and stars come out over the ocean.  She then walked casually back to her car.  Breathing in deeply as she went.  Once back in her car, she sat there for a few minutes staring out over the sea before turning her car around and heading home.

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I can’t tell you the amount of times I have wanted to do just this.  To just get in my car and drive to the beach.  To sit on the sand and listen to the waves of the ocean to bring me peace of mind.  To still my thoughts and do nothing but listen and breathe.

Seeing this picture brought up those thoughts and feelings, so this story came out of it.

Belle xo