Update

Update and Suggestions

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I have been a bit AWOL lately.  Was dealing with a lot so decided to take a break.  I know I still have a lot to wade through but I am getting there.

Anyway, I am working on a couple of things, like audio work and writings.  I am hoping to soon have at least some audio work done and can share.  I understand it is the way forward so am working on getting that started and very excited about it!

If you listen to Podcasts and have not yet listened to Joanna Penn of The Creative Penn, I strongly recommend giving her a listen or check out her website!

Also, I recommend Unemployable Podcast! Great advise and information you might be interested in too.

So, that is my two cents for the day and will be back really soon!

Love you all!

Belle xo

Daily prompt, DWP, Uncategorized

Daily Word Prompt – Noise

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What do you do when the noise of the world invades your mind and your thoughts?

You either let it in, or you chase it away.

If you let it in, the noise might overtake you and carry you to a place you don’t want to be.  To a place that brings you to a low place or thought.  Draining your energy.

It might even take you to a place that you need to be and out of your mind and thoughts that are bringing you down.

Or, if you chase it away, does it let you keep some great memories and thoughts for a bit longer? Basking in the happy times that put a smile on your face and a glow in your heart.

Maybe if you chase it away though you stay in negative thoughts and images that need to be put away and left there.

Either way, I believe we each go through times where we need to determine whether the noise is beneficial or harmful and react in the appropriate way.  Noises can be good, but they can also be bad.  Using them in the way we need them is the best way possible.

Do you agree?

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I know, a bit philosophical I guess.  Ha!

Belle xo

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Poem, Uncategorized

My Heart is Broken

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My heart is broken to say the least

I put all my love and heart into one person for so long

Trusting that it would never be released

For once I give it, I give it completely and belong

Yet not knowing there is the slow white lying to a constant steady

That beats you down over and over so you’re not ready

For the trust to be taken and hope to be crushed

As you try and try again thinking it must

Be restored to where it once was for the heart

The heart to survive the betrayal it feels

Becoming weaker and far away from the smart

Love that existed and that seals

The souls to each heart and body

Of the one that is now shoddy

And far away from the way it once was

Just out of reach and leaves you to pause

Asking, “what did I do wrong? Why am I not enough?”

To bring that one back to you and out of the darkness

Causing him to be fake and to bluff

Not himself anymore and living the harshness

That became our life and being so lost

Not knowing what to do to bring us back

I tried and tried with it only being tossed

Back at me as if nothing would disperse the wrack

Of where we had found ourselves

Feeling we had put us on the shelves

For dealing with it later as always

Yet feeling we were in a constant haze

Finally I couldn’t take it any more

I was ready to run out the door

I didn’t know what else to do

So I said I was through

After fighting so hard and for so long

I had a hard time seeing I belonged

In this relationship we no longer connected to

For all the many years we were only continuing to undo

The love we had promised one another was gone

All I could do was look on

To hope for a better life for him if I left

Because in the last few years it was only bereft

He had to find himself again and so did I

The only way to see it was goodbye

So he went his way and I went mine

I pray that we will heal in time

So both our hearts will no longer be broken

But solid and steadfast for trust, love and hoping.

 

 

 

 

Update

I Am Back

Well, I was away for a bit to enjoy my birthday week and get through some hard stuff this week.  I knew this week would be hard so for my birthday week I went to the mountains and did a couple of trails to some beautiful, calming, peaceful waterfalls.  (Pictures above)

Then this week was my final hearing for my divorce.  I was an emotional wreck prior to the hearing.  I expected an emotional time during it, but it was quick (after waiting an hour from our start time to be called) and smooth with no emotional breakdown.  Although with the long exhausting drive and my emotions totally drained, I broke down once home.  To be expected I suppose.  That is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.

No matter what we went through, the love is there and I will never ever forget the wonderful memories.

So, we will get through this and move on.

I thank everyone here, friends and readers, for your support and understanding.  I plan to continue on with this wonderful blog I love and hope to share so much more in the coming days, months and years!

Belle xo

Health, me

Boy, I am feeling old!

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So, I’m feeling old.  Not because of how I feel but the things I have to do health wise at my age! Ugh!

I went to the doctor this past Wednesday to have my toes looked at where I sliced them open with a slate slab in my walkway about two weeks ago.  I am taking really good care of them and she said they are healing really well.

I then asked her about several things I was concerned about and I now (about to turn 52 on Sunday) am at an age that I have to go through certain testing to make sure all is okay with my body.  This includes colonoscopy, annual mammograms (of which I have to do now anyway, because they found a non-cancerous lump in my right breast) and because I am worried about my snoring (yes, I said snoring!) getting worse, I will be having a sleep apnea test done! Oh and I have a really hard time losing weight, no matter what I do and know that would help with the snoring, so we discussed options.  See what I mean?!? I feel like my body is going against the way I feel! *rolling eyes*

Why can’t our bodies not age, just stay young looking and feeling until we pass?? That would be great, wouldn’t it??!! 🙂

I do take care of myself and my body at least.  I don’t want anything creeping up and shocking me, so I continue to keep up with myself, try to eat healthy and stay active.  It’s all we can do, right?

So, even though I don’t feel my age, I have to do the things that make sure I continue to feel good in this body of mine.  I hope you all are as well!!

Love you all! ❤

Belle xo