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You Know…The Feeling
You know the feeling of anxiety. The one that comes up and takes you by surprise. You think you are fine. Your gut is saying you are. You have gone to your appointment by yourself because it is no big deal. They are just checking that the mass has not gotten any bigger and it hasn’t moved. Doctor says all is good and will see you in a year to check again. Great!
You get to work and in the middle of your day, you get a little emotional with something you see. No big deal. That’s normal. Right? Just me and my female emotions is all. Then someone says something a little harsher than normal and you just start crying. WTH??!!
Yes, anxiety got me today! I didn’t realize, until the crying hit me, that I had let something that was okay, really get to me. It is that “not knowing” and keeping a strong persona, especially once you know all is okay, so that no one sees you were worried or stressed about it. No reason to be upset when all is okay, right?
Wrong. We all have our ways of dealing with things. I am just realizing when I do this kind of thing, that I was not dealing with it when I thought I was. Before I would think I was just being emotional or having a bad day. Now I know it was my anxiety I had not been dealing with and it finally hit me in this way instead of staying bottled up or seen as an emotional day. It really is amazing the things you learn about yourself when you start paying attention! 🙂