So…I am having to make decisions that are life changing right now. I know they are right decisions, yet I am always second guessing myself and, again, do the over-thinking. I always have and always will take others into consideration when I am doing things. It’s just who and how I am.
Unfortunately it is tearing me up. Even though I know in the long run they are the best decisions I am making.
I have found through my self discovery that I don’t like dealing with conflict and in the past few years have avoided it by all means necessary. Especially putting myself on the back burner and putting others first just so I don’t have to deal with the conflict or having others upset for any reason, especially if it is me doing the upsetting. This, however, has put me into a situation where others are used to me doing whatever they want and not what I want.
I never used boundaries with others. I never realized there was such a thing. So me now trying to place boundaries with people, well it is making life a bit on edge right now. Hopefully, not much longer, it will all settle down and be the norm for me. And I know if my family and friends truly love me, they will understand and change with me.
If you are reading this, bless you! I had to get this out of my head because as I always do, I was letting it take me where I didn’t need to be.
Enjoy your day! Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts.
*Beautiful picture of pensive reflection from Pinterest